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Let's see... where do I begin?
It's been... what, 3 years now? Man, it seems like it's been so much longer.
Anyways, before I really get started... Hi there. I can't quite introduce myself, because I'm not sure who I really am myself.
Some of you may remember "bernholm" as that irksome kid who seemed to be everywhere on the forums. Some of you may remember him as a good friend who was devoted to the game we all know and love. Some of you may not have even heard of him.
I don't know where I stand on this, myself.
I've had the past 3 years to grow up, and move on in life. However, I came to realize that those two are not necessarily the same thing.
When I look back on my old posts throughout the forums, I come to realize how much I've changed. I see what I was like 3 years ago and say to myself, "wow, I was really immature back then." In fact, I'll probably think the same thing of my current self when I look back again in another 3 years.
Of course, I never realized what I was like back then, because I didn't have any frame of reference for my maturity. I thought I was pretty mature. I didn't realize the ceiling was much higher than where I was at.
So why did I take a 3-year hiatus?
Well, first of all, school began to get pretty intense. I was devoting more and more of my time to work, and less of my time to leisure.
Secondly, I've moved all over the globe in the past 2 years. I've spent time in at least 5 different locations in 3 different countries. This, on top of schoolwork, makes it very hard to stay focused on one thing for a long period of time.
Thirdly - and this may be just me - I can't really play one game for more than a few months at a time. I had to stop at some point. However, I have finally exhausted all my other game options, and at the same time I've longed to re-enter the YSFlight community.
However, that's not an easy task. The community has changed so much since I left, I don't know if I can even come back and still be the same person. If I come back as who I was 3 years ago, will that be who I really am? Will I be able to live with myself? These are some of the many questions I have to consider. And it isn't just about rejoining YSFHQ, either.
By the way, if you're still reading, I'm sorry I'm using up so much of your time, and I thank you for devoting so much of your attention to my rambling. It really means quite a bit to me.
Anyways, my life situation right now is not the easiest one to devote time to YSFlight. But YSFlight isn't the only reason I came back. The other reason is because there are so many people here that I love talking to, and lately there's been a slight shortage of that.
So yeah, that's a pretty decent preview of what I'm going through right now. I wouldn't say I'm fully back. In fact, I doubt I could ever truly be who I was in 2013 ever again. So for those of you who knew bernholm in 2013, that person is gone - for the most part.
In reality, while I can never truly never be my past self again, I can also never truly let go of who I was. So 2013 bernholm is not COMPLETELY gone. You'll probably still see a little bit of the autistic behavior I exhibited 3 years ago. (Yes, I do have high-functioning autism, in case you were wondering.)
And much like last time, I probably won't be here to stay permanently. Everyone needs a break now and then. But I'll try to stick around for as long as possible - or at least for as long as you want me here (and I hope the latter is at least as long as the former ).
How active will I be? Well, that's also hard to say. (I'm really indecisive, aren't I?) Again, I'll try to be as active as possible (obviously not overdoing it - that was one of my flaws in 2013), but if I'm becoming a nuisance again, just let me know and I'll try to rectify the situation.
TL;DR It's good to be back. Hello again, YSFHQ.
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Loljk. Welcome back man! It's awesome to see you again, hope you are doing well.